Bow No More

I can bow no more

My knees are open wounds

Ground with dirt and circumspect self-hatred.

 

No,

I am only laughing now.

 

Scraping away at the bottom of darkness

With my bloody fingertips

That grasped at your love and acceptance.

 

Yes,

I am only laughing now.

 

Because I can bow no more.

You Might be a Witch if…

A little something fun ; )

You might be a witch if…

1. If you’ve ever googled “How to get wax stains out of carpet.”

 

2. If you’ve worried about catching your hair on fire more than once in your life.

 

3. If you pay just as much attention to the color of the candle you’re sniffing, as the smell.

 

4. If your idea of a good calendar is one with moon phases.

 

5. If your house is the only one on the block with light during a power outage.

 

Meno<3

Condemned

Condemned I am
In all things
In all worlds
In all breaths
On all tongues
Cursed one
Whom you disdain
With fury
Born of misery

Shall I rot
As those who came before me
Whether in heaven or hell
My childhood cries
Were fraught with heresy
And demonic symphonies
You have told me such
As I nursed helplessly
That I should die
As soon as I began to live

Cursed am I
So that I gather the faggots
With bloody hands
Repent with tearful eyes
Blistered body burned by your vitriolic desire
‘Til I no longer plague your perfection

The Witch’s Bookshelf (Book Review): The Long Hard Road out of Hell

In my opinion the apocalypse… Must be primarily an internal, spiritual event, and only in a secondary way an external catastrophe. The gates of the Watchtowers… are mental constructions. When they are opened, they will admit [Satan] not into the physical world but into our subconscious minds…. The apocalypse is a mental transformation that will occur, or is presently occurring, within the collective unconscious of the human race.

-Donald Tyson, “the Enochian Apocalypse”, as quoted in chapter 15 of “The Long Hard Road out of Hell” by Marilyn Manson (with Niel Strauss)

The Long Hard Road out of Hell: Marilyn Manson, with Niel Strauss

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There are few people in this day and age with the brutal notoriety of Marilyn Manson, which is ironic, since honestly all he’s done is create art, deep and sometimes disturbing art, but just art.

Of course the people who have made him so notorious are the same people who eventually put Gallello on house arrest for continuing to stand by his idea that the earth revolves around the sun. Not that Manson seems to mind, he knows very well that his popularity would be hard won without the churches constant opposition, much the same way that LaVey maintained that his church would not exist without Christianity. You could say that they are the unwitting, and unwilling catalysts.

With all of this uproar it sometimes feels difficult to separate the man from the legend. This book goes a long way towards that.

I’ll admit that I’m a big fan. Why? Because I can relate, as a person, as an artist, plain and simple. I am part of the apocalypse. Christianity had died within me, has been buried in a small unmarked grave in my soul. Why would I want to remember my torment anyways?

So I suppose it won’t surprise anyone that I really enjoyed this book. I don’t suggest it as reading for just anyone, but if you’re a fan, or you’re willing to take a trip into the darkness, then this book is for you.

Manson (Brian Warner) starts with his formative years, as any sensible person would. It is a story much softer than his namesake (Charles Manson, who’s formative years were full of abuse and abandonment of the deepest kind), but still no bed of roses. These formative years are often were we as humans begin to lose or gain our ability for things like empathy and emotion, and that seems to be the common thread throughout this book, Manson’s struggle to maintain his empathy and emotion.

His recounting of his childhood bleeds into a drug fueled rebirth as a godforsaken rock star. This centers chiefly around the struggle to complete Antichrist Superstar, which in turn portrays Manson’s rebirth.

It is here, in my opinion, that his true depth as an artist shines through. We all have our demons, and we all use our art to exorcise them. We all have something to say, something to share. This is our stage.

Turn away if you must.

 

 

 

 

Blight

The seed is gestational

Plump and ripe

But time touches it

How cruelly

The blight creeps

From the inside

Darkening even the shell

Till it cracks and falls away

 

Then I am left empty

A vessel only for desire

The poison that erodes the walls

So subtly

 

Mother moon how you turn

I take solace in your ever changing

I offer you my vessel

Void

And you touch my desire

My blight

With the reassurance

Of constant transformation

For what I am today

Is not what I will be

Tomorrow

 

 

 

 

Sons and Daughters of Perdition (book launch)

It’s here, I’ve done it, I’ve taken the leap and finally self-published my very first ebook!!!

You can buy it not only at Smashwords, but also at all of the fine retailers that they distribute to. to check it out on smashwords just click the following link https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/691660. I must confess I’m over the top nervous, but this has been a dream come true and I’m super happy with the finished product. I have included a sample below, it is the poem from which I derived the title. Thank you to all of my blog readers, and to all of the other independent authors out there that have encouraged me along the way!

Meno<3

Sons and Daughters of Perdition

 

We cannot sleep

Disjointed

Sometimes alone

Sometimes afraid

Sometimes Longing

To return

The fold is closed

The door is sealed

Hope is starved

And weak

Almost dead

 

We are lonely

On the horizon

But as we descend

Into the valley,

Like a sea

Living, breathing

We find them,

Our fellows

Who share our heartbeat

Enfolding us

In their masses

Oh sons and daughters of perdition!

Do not sorrow!

Cover Art For My First Book (Or: Making Your Own Cover Art For Hard knocks)

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So dear readers, here’s my tentative cover, for better or worse. What do you think? I wanted to start with something simple and easy, since this is my first book, I think this came out very well. I’ll explain how I did it below, but first, let me explain the cover and the book behind it (feel free to skip to the cover design part).

The Sons and Daughters of Perdition: Furthermore referred to as SDP, because I’m too lazy to type it over and over again (hey, I’m sick, give me a break!). SDP is my first book of poetry (which I plan on releasing at the start of 2017). I’m dedicating it to all of you who have had the courage to go your own way religiously, despite resistance from your friends and family (or fear of resistance).

That is in fact what this book is about, daring to go ones own way. I chose the title ‘sons and daughters of perdition’ not because I’m from a Mormon family, but because I thought it wonderfully summed up the feeling of those who have left their birth-faith. I’m actually from one of those rag-tag sprouts of Christianity, a bit of a homeless wanderer. Most of the smaller branches of Christianity, as you may know, are practically interchangeable (and there are so many to interchange), as long as you aren’t a hair-splitting kind of person.

I hope that you, my dear readers, will find this book comforting. When I broke from my birth-religion I was in the dark, not knowing that other people had the same experience as I did, and that they’d come out the other side alright, better than before in fact. If I can help even one person understand that it isn’t the end of the world, and that they’ll find a way out of this perpetual darkness that organized religion had cast them into, then my job is done.

I chose the iris (if you can tell that it is indeed an iris in the picture) because it’s symbolic of a bridge between heaven and earth. I personally believe that we can be our own bridge between heaven and earth and we need not rely on others to achieve balance and a life worth living.

 

How I made the cover:

Being a complete novice when it comes to self-publishing, I did my own cover art, not having read the vociferous and myriad warnings that a writer cannot do their own cover art and should always use stock photos or hire an artist (so feel free to tell me how terrible my cover looks). I knew I could use stock photos, but I couldn’t imagine one that would feel right, stock photos are too smooth and manufactured, they don’t really catch the spirit of my book. The drawing took me about two and a half hours (ouch, my shoulder! Why Can’t I learn to use an easel!). It is done with pencil (for the sketch) and watercolor pencils (hence the slightly less detailed feeling), the symbols were done with a Chinese calligraphy set. The background is also watercolor pencil, although I haven’t added water to it.

Then I loaded it up to my computer and asked myself ‘what in the heck do I do with it now?? How do I get text on it??’. Cue google. Since like most writers just starting out I have little to no money and no software, I had to search for a cheap easy way to design a cover. To my surprise I learned that you can use Microsoft word to make a cover (imagine that!). Me and Microsoft word have always been BF’s but now we’re BFF’s.

This is a pretty good starter tutorial for starters, courtesy of the creative penn. It helped a ton.

I soon realized though that this was something would take quite a while to master, mostly because there are so many useful settings in Microsoft word. So I kept trying and failing, until I discovered ‘templates’ on this neat site http://www.diybookformats.com  which also has a lot of video tutorials and the like. Only catch of course (as near as I can see, let me know if you know of any others) is that he wants you to sign up for the newsletter if you want to download the free templates (not the full package fyi, but quite enough). I’m always a little wary of free downloads, but so far so good.

I played with a few templates, then found the perfect one, switched in my picture and tweaked it. That was when I realized that my biggest flaw had been fonts, which was incidentally the one thing I struggled most with.

So to put it bluntly, making a book cover by yourself is not easy. If you are going to do it I suggest you start waaaayyyy ahead of time and learn everything you can about the program (or programs) you’re planning on using (please don’t be a procrastinator like me).

I wish all indie writers out there the best of luck! May we either be able to design kickass covers, or have enough money to get someone to design them for us!!!!

 

Cheers

Meno<3

 

Have you had any experiences designing your own covers? Have questions? Let me know below in the comments.

The Witch’s Bookshelf: Urban Voodoo (Book Review)

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Urban Voodoo, A beginner’s Guide to Afro-Caribbean Magic By: S. Jason Black and Christopher S. Hyatt, Ph.D.:

I have long felt that Voodoo (as well as hoodoo and all of the other various offshoots), has been by far the biggest gap in my cultural, religious, magical knowledge. So I was excited when I was able to snag this book.

However, I ended up quite disappointed. Now it is firmly established that this a beginners sort of book, so I was prepared for that. What I was not prepared for was the brute condescension with which they argue against most other religions. In fact, it felt as though they should have titled this book ‘why Voodoo is better than every other religion under the sun’. To really drive my point home, there are fifteen chapters in this book, but no real concrete knowledge until chapter ten (which is a chapter devoted to divination, most of it commonplace).

So in the end, while I felt like I learned something new, I really was left feeling that they could have put more work into the back part of the book, and condensed the front, even just a little. That being said, if you are looking to fulfill morbid curiosity, or find strong refutations of Christianity, this book will serve you well. If you are looking to really learn about the framework of Voodoo practice and history, I would spend my well earned money elsewhere.

 

Any suggestions for good Voodoo/Hoodoo ect. guides?

One Lovely Blog Award

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Witches of the Craft over at witchesofthecraft.com, has nominated me for the One Lovely Blog Award along with 6 other amazing bloggers! Many many thanks! You can visit their lovely site here.

So here’s the rules for accepting the award:

1. Thank the lovely person who nominated your blog and follow them.
2. Display the award and add this set of rules to your post so that your nominees will know what to do
3. Nominate as many other great blogs as you like, listing them in your post and notifying them via a link in one of their blog posts.
4. List 7 interesting facts about yourself to the post.

 

Ok, so seven interesting facts…

 

  1. I enjoy composing music, it really is a wonderful thing and goes hand in hand with poetry, because most songs are simply poems.
  2. I have been writing since I was very little (with varying success), writing and reading are some of my biggest passions. It made me sad to know that these things weren’t really considered something you could do with your life, but now that I’m older I realize that it’s something that I’m fairly good at (due to practice), and there is absolutely no reason why I shouldn’t pursue it and live my life to the fullest!
  3. Becoming a witch was the best decision of my life. Before I decided to follow this path I suffered greatly from depression, suicidal thoughts, self harm ect. Things that not only was the church not able to help with, but that was caused by my suffocating proximity to them. No matter what problem you might have there will be a handful of very predictable answers, a: Let’s pray about it, b: Let’s look in the bible, and that’s about it. Never once could I find someone who could give me real solid counsel. After growing up in this way I finally decided that I just couldn’t take it anymore and I must take matters into my own hands (not God’s). That was when I started studying other religions closely. Witchcraft naturally drew me, as the apple in the tree so to speak, I wanted to know and understand this religion that I was always told was poisonous and dangerous beyond all religions. After all was said and done it was where I settled, it gave me the power to seek my own solutions, to fight my own demons, instead of putting the fight in the hands of a all-powerful being that I could not see. I’m very glad that I have taken the journey of studying other religions, I have learned so many wonderful things, and I will carry them with me my whole life, an so here I am, finally happy with my decisions!
  4. I’m a cat person. (number three was so long you needed a breather right?)
  5. I am married to a Christian! Believe it or not. My lover is amazing in every way though, not caring in the least, never trying to convert me, as I have never tried to convert my lover!
  6. I plan on self publishing a great many works, starting with a lovely book of poetry. I hope that other writers out there will be inspired to take the plunge themselves. It is a new era, let’s not be shy, the power is ours!
  7. I love to sketch, I just haven’t in a long time. If I do ever get around to it I will make sure to post something nice on my blog : )

 

Now for the blogs I nominate, oh there are so many lovely blogs, so I will only nominate five, or we could be here allll day.

 

  1. In the desert of Seth who’s detailed, well thought out, and wonderful articles are worth a view. This is also a great place if you are interested in learning more about this fascinating religion.
  2. the quintessential editor this is a must visit for any writer! As a writer AND former editor his articles are chocked full of useful information and delightful humor. : D
  3. Recollections at fall I enjoy reading poetry as well as writing it. This is one of the sites I continue to revisit, Veena has a wonderful way with words and a very unique and refreshing style!
  4. Witch Petals Detailed articles about witchcraft plus amazing and stirring poetry! It just doesn’t get any better!!
  5. Saint Charlotte This is a blog I have just discovered, but instantly fell in love with! Saint Charlotte has a beautiful and readable style, it makes me want to curl up with a cup of something hot and read her poetry all day!

I hope you take the time to visit all, or even some of these great blogs!

Blessed be, and keep on writing!

Meno