Sink or swim
Head bobbing in the tide
A speck in pre-dawn darkness
Flailing amidst wreckage
Are you the same?
I’m not.
It’s liquid dark under the waves
A roaring that numbs
If I reach the bottom
It scrapes my tender skin
Should I be the same?
It hurts too much.
When light seeps above the horizon
I see how slow hope is
Close my eyes and block it out
Float ‘til I’ve smashed against rocks
Nothing is ever the same
But it always hurts
Winter reeks of death
Relentless chill
Under an obscure sun
Rescue me from heartlessness
Slow decay
As I stare listlessly into reflections
My warmth, life, light
Even when I am only darkness
Broken and scattered
They don’t like if you laugh while you’re bleeding
You don’t know who I am
Every solitary word a hum of desolation
Yet I am still stretched up and over the sky
Rested on eons of vibration
Eyes closed, a slow drift into eternity
Stupid broken thing
I’ve wistfully opened my jaw
To let the darkness roll out
Clouds from my tongue
Hope turning into vapor
See, I used to be your saint
So sweet, I’d come under no shadow
But now, I’m just jacked
I write for you
Savage
Tearing with teeth
Because I know
You are bleeding like me
Someone is looking up
At the void of stars
Trying to suck the little low-lying light
Into what’s left of a soul
Can I be the voice echoing back?
Me
Too
I’ve blackened inside
A dark hollow
I dig small pieces of sanity from
You can take it away from me
Like the breath from my lungs
With a subtle strangle
Slow and belabored
Or an elaborate truncation
Quick and swift
But you’ll still have my blood on your hands
This album is experimental and very simple (vocals + bass guitar), but more than anything it was something that helped me get through some very dark times. The first track I wrote, heat, was short but packed with inescapable emotion. Practicing it, honing it, singing and playing it over and over not only gave me an escape but a channel for my emotions. My grief, sorrow, anger and ptsd were all things I didn’t feel I could share with those around me, not wanting it to negatively effect them. Instead I wrote song after song, and ended up with this album.
I’ve only included some of the tracks (hence the EP), the ones that I felt were the best and most unique. They were also most representative of the story I was telling. My favorite track (the fool) comes at the end because of this, bringing a sort of closure to the plot, maybe even a slightly optimistic tone.
I hope that my pain speaks to others. You are not alone, that’s the hardest thing to figure out sometimes. Isolation is natural, hard to shake, but it is by no means necessary.
Please enjoy the lyrics and album art below!
Many Blessings,
Meno Silencio
Album Art and Lyrics/poetry
Original Cover Art:
Track 1: The Tower
Lyrics:
The heart beats slowly,
The heart beats fast
I am still
In this my coffin
The pain is crawling up my spine
Tearing out the connections
The heart beats still
The heart beats frantic
I cannot escape
This my coffin
I cannot wash away memories
Every neuron is soiled
The heart beats like deaths drum
The heart beats, drenched in hopelessness
You have created
This my coffin
The tower is burning
Sending hot ash into my eyes
The heart beats slowly
The heart beats faster
The heart beats slowly
The heart beats faster
I try to tear off my skin
I want to tear out my eyes
I want to die
But I fail
Still….
The heart beat slowly
The heart beats faster
The heart beat slowly
The heart beats faster
Track 2: Heat
Lyrics:
The heat wells up from the earth
Touches my soul
And we burn
Like autumn
Like flame
Like fire
The earth is welling up
To take me home
Into its arms
Though I fear
It is calling
So shake my bones
Make me quiver
The earth is welling up
Burning like autumn
Like fire
Like flame
The earth is welling up
Destroying my fear
Burning my reason
Like autumn
Like fire
Like flame
Track 3: I’ll See You In Hell
Lyrics:
The sky comes down
Takes your eyes
I am laughing
From the solar eclipse
Safe in the suns dying glare
Its tail is like a knife
The spine of a bleeding rose
Taste my blood on high
I send it down
Cutting my wrists on shards of the moon
The sky comes down
To engulf you
I am laughing
From the broken universe
Riding in the swirling stars
Their tails are like knives
The spines of bleeding roses
I’m biding you farewell
With cut fingers
Dripping sorrows blood
I have cut them grasping stars in my escape
The sky comes down
Upon you like a storm
I am laughing from the dust and debris
Safe in the universes womb
Its tail is like a knife
The spine of a bleeding rose
Protect the blood of my womb
From your touch
I have cut myself already
On fear and hopelessness
The sky comes down
Takes your eyes
Know my name
You have called me Nemo
In your own way
But I’ll see you in hell
Track 4: The Fool
Lyrics:
Got my sack in hand
Standing in the cosmic void
Edge of the universe
Saturn swings around my thumb
I miss home
Pluto is about my head
I miss breathing
[Chorus:
Take me away
Take me anywhere but here]
Got a stick to fend off the wolves
Could I fend off my heart
Howling savage in the night
The milky way is my shroud
I miss your touch
I exhale the planetary dust
I want to live inside of you
[Chorus]
Got the sun to my back
Stepping into the abyss
Edge of the universe
Don’t half mind
The planets align
I miss beginnings
The stars are all dust
All I have is lost time
[Chorus]
Got my sack in hand
Standing in the cosmic void
Edge of the universe
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There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do
Offer flesh and bone
For a freedom
Integral to my skin
Why should I be denied?
But I’m used to unbridled desecration of my soul
I know you don’t care
And that leaves me a solitary shadow
A simple darkness
Alone until the great night falls, permanent and starless
Biting down on my razor blade teeth
Until I bleed
This is the only sunrise
You tried to appeal to the human in me
Wipe away my bloody smile
But I laughed inside
Knowing you killed it
In a line of unrelenting forced submisson
That I took
And took
So now this is fucking survival
This is the sharp edge
Dissecting my pain
To let in fleeting relief
And I will not bow to you
theherdlesswitch 