i think i was perfect

Steven Cuenca’s emotionally deep poem, ‘I Think I Was Perfect’!

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i think i was perfect when i was diving deep,
like diving deeper than i’ve ever slept.
‘sleep’ rhymed better, but nonetheless
i think i was perfect two summers ago.

i think i was perfect when life and love
were broken by lack of sleep,
and a poor diet,
and the only love i found was in myself
and it was rich like dark chocolate
with almonds for the crunch.

i think i was perfect when everything was falling apart
and my body went into fight or flight.
every night was the morning,
every morning, a night,
i chose to fly instead of fight.

i think i was perfect when my eyes
succumbed to muscle memory
and they poured just like my drinks did.
nights of flashing, flashing lights,
and a spirit hardly lifted.

i think i was perfect when i was closest to christ,
my hands and feet…

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Mother of Sorrows EP (Album Release)

This album is experimental and very simple (vocals + bass guitar), but more than anything it was something that helped me get through some very dark times. The first track I wrote, heat, was short but packed with inescapable emotion. Practicing it, honing it, singing and playing it over and over not only gave me an escape but a channel for my emotions. My grief, sorrow,  anger and ptsd were all things I didn’t feel I could share with those around me, not wanting it to negatively effect them. Instead I wrote song after song, and ended up with this album.

I’ve only included some of the tracks (hence the EP), the ones that I felt were the best and most unique. They were also most representative of the story I was telling. My favorite track (the fool) comes at the end because of this, bringing a sort of closure to the plot, maybe even a slightly optimistic tone.

I hope that my pain speaks to others. You are not alone, that’s the hardest thing to figure out sometimes. Isolation is natural, hard to shake, but it is by no means necessary.

Please enjoy the lyrics and album art below!

Many Blessings,

Meno Silencio

 

Album Art and Lyrics/poetry

 

Original Cover Art:

Cover

Track 1: The Tower

The Tower

 

Lyrics:

The heart beats slowly,

The heart beats fast

I am still

In this my coffin

The pain is crawling up my spine

Tearing out the connections

 

The heart beats still

The heart beats frantic

I cannot escape

This my coffin

I cannot wash away memories

Every neuron is soiled

 

The heart beats like deaths drum

The heart beats, drenched in hopelessness

You have created

This my coffin

The tower is burning

Sending hot ash into my eyes

 

The heart beats slowly

The heart beats faster

The heart beats slowly

The heart beats faster

 

I try to tear off my skin

I want to tear out my eyes

I want to die

But I fail

Still….

 

The heart beat slowly

The heart beats faster

The heart beat slowly

The heart beats faster

 

Heat

 

Track 2: Heat

 

Lyrics:

The heat wells up from the earth

Touches my soul

And we burn

Like autumn

Like flame

Like fire

 

The earth is welling up

To take me home

Into its arms

Though I fear

It is calling

 

So shake my bones

Make me quiver

The earth is welling up

Burning like autumn

Like fire

Like flame

 

The earth is welling up

Destroying my fear

Burning my reason

Like autumn

Like fire

Like flame

 

I'll See You In Hell

 

Track 3: I’ll See You In Hell

 

Lyrics:

The sky comes down

Takes your eyes

I am laughing

From the solar eclipse

Safe in the suns dying glare

Its tail is like a knife

The spine of a bleeding rose

 

Taste my blood on high

I send it down

Cutting my wrists on shards of the moon

 

The sky comes down

To engulf you

I am laughing

From the broken universe

Riding in the swirling stars

Their tails are like knives

The spines of bleeding roses

 

I’m biding you farewell

With cut fingers

Dripping sorrows blood

I have cut them grasping stars in my escape

 

The sky comes down

Upon you like a storm

I am laughing from the dust and debris

Safe in the universes womb

Its tail is like a knife

The spine of a bleeding rose

 

Protect the blood of my womb

From your touch

I have cut myself already

On fear and hopelessness

 

The sky comes down

Takes your eyes

Know my name

You have called me Nemo

In your own way

But I’ll see you in hell

 

The Fool

 

Track 4: The Fool

 

Lyrics:

Got my sack in hand

Standing in the cosmic void

Edge of the universe

 

Saturn swings around my thumb

I miss home

Pluto is about my head

I miss breathing

 

[Chorus:

Take me away

Take me anywhere but here]

 

Got a stick to fend off the wolves

Could I fend off my heart

Howling savage in the night

 

The milky way is my shroud

I miss your touch

I exhale the planetary dust

I want to live inside of you

 

[Chorus]

 

Got the sun to my back

Stepping into the abyss

Edge of the universe

Don’t half mind

 

The planets align

I miss beginnings

The stars are all dust

All I have is lost time

 

[Chorus]

 

Got my sack in hand

Standing in the cosmic void

Edge of the universe

 

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Help Your Reader Connect!

Another awesome and useful writing post by Jan over at ‘writingyourfirstnovelblog’!

Writing your first novel-Things you should know

500-words_TestI just read through and edited my novel for God knows the number of times, I’ve lost count. That’s a problem in itself. I should be more efficient and effective with my time, but I’ll save that issue for another blog.

While my work is grammatically and structurally sound, the scenes flow, and there are no obvious plot holes, something’s missing, and I need to figure out what it is.

I followed all the rules, but it takes more than rules to pump up that novel and make it interesting enough for someone to want to purchase. You need to cover all of the basis, not just the technical ones.

I went back and did something I haven’t done in six months. I hate to confess, but I haven’t been reading. I love historical romances and have at least twenty sitting on a shelf that I haven’t read. Why? I…

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Let’s Have a Blog Party!

Very nice meet and greet post from https://phoebemd.com/ great way to meet new bloggers in the new year!!!

Meno<3

PhoebeMD: Medicine + Poetry

Dear Friends,

As 2018 comes to a close, let us usher in the New Year by coming together once again to connect and to support each other’s blogs. You all made the last Meet & Greet a great success; let us make this one even more wonderful.

– What’s the Point? –

To share your blog, find new blogs, and connect with other bloggers.

– What to Do –

  1. Leave a comment with a brief description of your blog along with a link to your blog (be sure to copy the entire blog address so it shows up as a hyperlink to allow others to easily visit you).
  2. Take a minute to visit some of the other blogs listed in the comments (Don’t be shy—make your presence known by reaching out and saying hi!). 
  3. Feel free to share or reblog this post to spread the word.
  4. Bookmark this post and…

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Give

A piece of me lives in you

We are, after all, just broken little children

 

Shudder.

The night is long.

 

A piece of my darkness is bleeding away

I am, after all, just a broken soul

 

Weep.

Life if futile suffering.

 

I want to take all these pieces from you

Give them to me

 

Give.

Pain is not meant for you.

 

 

 

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